Grateful For Your Journey

The shell I own.  The fire I own.  The valor I hold.  This life that I own, I see it all. I see it all, from far away, I hear it in me, it pounds in my heart. Pounds in my chest and in my head, to tell me something, that I don't hear. I wish I did, I try to listen but I can't. Although I wish I did.  There is a whisper, its comforting. I am mystified by how that whisper knows exactly what I need to hear. I follow it, I go behind it, it doesn't seem so safe though. I met someone during the chase, they were nice, told me there is nothing to look, its just nothing, seemed true, so I came back with them. To be honest, it also looked like vast nothing, so ok, I stopped looking. I listen to a wall, it whispers to me, tells me to stay, it tells me to turn away, go back and get back to life, that is on the outside. That wall is my friend, I have faith, I trust it, it protects me, but doesn't let me too close to itself. Why, why would a friend do that? Its ok though, its nice...

  Few things I want to tell you: It is not at all necessary that what you think you want to do, should be fun, and you should be happy hundred percent of the times doing it It is not at all necessary that what you are doing, you like every part of it. You may hate it and still wanna do it, and that is absolutely fine You are allowed to complain, even if you are on your own path. If you are doing something you feel, you have chosen for yourself, you still can be unhappy about it and complain about it  Whatever you want to do, it is not necessary you have to ace in it. You are allowed to be just ok at it, and continue being ok at it Being on top of everything is not the only thing to live for You might like something now, and you might not like that thing later, that is also ok, you are allowed to grow out of your past dreams and aspire for new things You are allowed to choose things and paths for you, that might be uncomfortable for others No decision in life is do or die, noth...

  They say don't let them see your heart, they will find ways to use you. I always had my walls up, with on point comebacks, but still I couldn't save myself from being used. It happened. It was my mistake, because  I was too kind I didn't have a proper answer I wasn't careful enough from the beginning I didn't form proper sentences I was incapable of hiding my incapability  I take everything too seriously  I should have been able to carve the conversation in my favor  I am a bad negotiator  Aren't these too many rules, to follow, all the time. So, being a weak person, I decided to let a couple of rules slip. And did the unspeakable, spoke my mind. What got into me that I did it, you ask, because, I was tired of choosing the right set of words I was tired of framing sentences, that, were non aggressive  said no non-negatively  didn't show my emotions didn't hurt anyone's sentiments convey everything in concise and crisp way stand my ground firmly ...